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2010
i believe it all started with the passing of Tim
thats when i think the family started to fall apart
the dinners werent as frequent anymore
there wasnt any cchitter chatter between the cousins
the grandparents were left and forgotten
at least on one side
and the other side was loss after loss from then on in
Violet the flower
a wicked witch tamed and true
pictures proved her beautiful
a character
full of life
love
a quick remark and a one liner
took a fall
and got too lonely
a broken heart at an old age
another fall
a last full meal and a sleep without waking
one daughter went crazy but that happened long before the happenings
i could tell you of the “figure” but honestly i remember nothing but bad times so whats the point
a work horse so he wanted all to belive
i called bullshit from the start
i see a shovel and an alarm clock with a flannel shirt and a nascar cap
big fucking deal sir
see
heres what most people dont know are care too read too far into
i can write whatever the fuck i want here
i can cut beg scream pray and lie without being judged
i would never do any of the above tho
i dont pray
begging is for bambi
screaming is for the lost
cutting is too goth
and lying is for the mouths of dirty filthy steampunk whores
covered in the mud puddled water that they fell over
im giving away keys to locks on doors to all of your happiness
im not making you stand in line
or go thru the bankers maze
stand still
but move quickly theyll tell you
do a good job but only just good enough
here is what ive learned from 2010
heres to who ive lost
and those of you who know me know what friends are gone
i can owe my life and i do
i wouldnt be here or even a possibility
a dad is just a dick
but a mother is everything
if you can find a light
a shimmer and a glimmer
than i think youll understand
think of who you luv
think of those who hurt
think of lifes sweet short length
thank yourself for being right
for being wrong
making everyday a mistake and a wonderful trip
we can all keep walking until we fall over
we can all still try while we’re still breathing
